As a lot of my friends, dA friends and maybe watchers know, I have a very severe problem with depression. I've dealt with it alone, for longer than I care to remember, but now I want to take a stand against it.

I've been thinking a lot about it in the last week, and after a rather large argument with my ex boyfriend last weekend, and another last night with him, I am only pushed to do it. When I started dating him, things not only got worse and worse for my emotional stability, but I began thinking more and more about suicide to solve my problems. Now that we're no longer dating, he's only getting worse for me and I'm no longer allowing myself to go deeper into it than I have.

So after blocking him on MSN, fighting past the harsh comments, and tears, I'm done with him.

I believe depression is not only a disease, but an addiction. The craving for it is hard to resist, even though you know it's horrible. In theory, cravings only last an average of 20 minutes, and addictions and bad habits can be defeated in 21 days of not doing them

This is why, for the next month I'll be doing what makes ME happy, and continue to do so every day after.

I will:
-Update my journal with happy word features
-Feature Art related sites in my journal
-Upload as much art as I can push out of me
-READ MORE - hell ya! Finishing Harry Potter 7 FINALLY
-Do what ever else I can think of to make me happy.

So please, suggest words, art sites, other ways to keep happy as much as you can. I'm totally open to suggestions.

If YOU want to help ME in anyway, donate here .... noo I'm just kidding Draw something for me, create any kind of art for me, comment on my page to push me to keep going. Do what ever you feel would work. If you want to send me art, note me, and if I feel comfortable, I'll give you my address.

I will get out of this. The alternative just doesn't appeal to me.

P.S. If you feel the same way, join me.